There I was, waiting for you. Waiting for you to offer me a glimpse of what could happen, if we just forgot the rules for a while...and forget we did.
Afterwards I felt guilty, wondering if your lips touching mine tarnished a good friendship. But you were good to me, probably one of the few to actually care about me.
But now I wonder how you see me? Am I still your friend? Am I a substitute for your real needs? Or am I outside your realm of thoughts? Do you still need me like you needed my companionship?
I sense you feel differently about me. I knew it when you begged me not to see the guy. But you also told me, in a veiled attempt, to forget about you before the fantasies begin.
So here I am, stuck between your lips and a promise to myself. A promise to uphold friendship over love. Maybe what I wanted from you, I was already receiving and by being greedy I lost sight of us.
Afterwards I felt guilty, wondering if your lips touching mine tarnished a good friendship. But you were good to me, probably one of the few to actually care about me.
But now I wonder how you see me? Am I still your friend? Am I a substitute for your real needs? Or am I outside your realm of thoughts? Do you still need me like you needed my companionship?
I sense you feel differently about me. I knew it when you begged me not to see the guy. But you also told me, in a veiled attempt, to forget about you before the fantasies begin.
So here I am, stuck between your lips and a promise to myself. A promise to uphold friendship over love. Maybe what I wanted from you, I was already receiving and by being greedy I lost sight of us.
