My memories of you are fading...The spot of ink you left in the story of my life has slowly dulled with the passage of time. Time is a great healer. I realise I have been disrespectful of time. I should have used it more wisely and actively in filling the pages with better experiences. You can never gain back time lost but what you choose to do from this moment forth can heavily impact the rest of your existence. I say 'you' because I know I'll read this another day and remind myself of the turning points in my life, however small.
I have been honest to a fault. Some people just don't get that I do not have ulterior motives. Not everything in life is premeditated. Everyone is lonely, reaching out to people in their own ways. People with the greatest pain on the inside reflect the opposite of what they feel. They try the hardest to make sure no one reaches the low points they have been skimming their whole lives. Empathy needs to work both ways, and people forget that.
I yearn to love. Love should not be bought like lust is. Lust is just a transaction made between two bodies..But love, it's more than a transaction of body and mind. Love should feel easy and as natural as the path of the river flowing out towards the sea. But for most, rocks ,dams and twisted paths come into play and prevent from getting to where we need to go.
I wish you courage and the strength to carry on.